I fucking despise growing up in this shell of a culture and society that is on the brink of collapse. The work force will drain the soul and essence out of you after extended exposure, while still not making enough to pay the bills. Then theres these “schools” that are supposedly institutions to acquire knowledge and a bright future, yet they most often provide general information in a number of fields unrelated to your actual pursuits, all while draining you financially for the next 10 years. Then the real kicker, you may not even be provided with an actual occupation in what you studied! Oh how glorious a day it is to be alive with the value of a dollar rapidly decreases without an actual stable job market to give us the slightest glimmer of a recovery. But yes, follow your dreams and passions, while attempting to stay afloat in this sea thats trying to tear you apart. How challenging I find it now to feel okay with my pursuits, yet I know theres nothing I can do until I reach the level of influence I need to have a voice. And so many wonder why I contemplated suicide, time and time again.